i'm going to try real hard not to let my blog entries get depressing.
if it begins to happen, tell me and i will crush up one of my prozac, sprinkle it over my keyboard like the ashes of a loved one and then wait 4-6 weeks for it to get better.
or i'll just post a picture of my gilly dog. because she brightens any day.
the fact of the matter is i'm going through some tough stuff right now.
and i don't really know why.
just another one of those times, i suppose.
i just feel so absent from everything.
ever since starting my job, i haven't felt normal.
every day seems to be a bad one. (except for my days off, of course.)
i can't seem to get myself out of a sad mood.
and every day i find myself missing.
why am i always missing?
i just miss utah.
i really miss friends.
i love being married so much. i really, really do.
but sometimes i go back to the days of living at campus view south #5 and i miss it so much.
i miss having my best friend, brittany live in the basement of our apartment.
i miss kendyl being my neighbor and sitting on her stoop.
i miss sitting at the kitchen table with ashley.
i miss doing hair in my bedroom with bree.
(and having daniel wash my hair in the bathtub)
i miss walks around all of provo for hours each night.
i miss bon fires in the canyon.
i miss the dollar theater.
i miss byu.
i'll shut up now.
because i'm getting sappy and lame.
i'm just being stupid.
please forgive me.
and stay with me while i get my life back together.
lyrics: and now all i can see are white stars, they span forever.